Its been a while...

My plan was to update this page every Sunday. Obviously that ended up not being the case. Life is a funny thing isn't it? You wake up and you have your coffee and you set your plan for the day. Then you hear a small voice in the back of your head laughing. The very next thing you know your husbands car wont start, you forgot you were supposed to open your salon, you get charged for a subscription you were pretty sure you canceled, your salon is way over on money in the til because no one bothered to take the deposit on Saturday and your staff has decided they do not need to follow the rules when you're not in.

My point is life gets in the way and smacks you down like the hand of God. When you're living with the sort of thing I am, or any mental illness for that matter, its sometimes too much to deal with all at once. That saying really is true, when it rains it pours. So how do you deal with it? Well I can't tell you how to live your life, nor would I want to. All I can do is tell you how I cope. I am not an overly religious person and I don't pretend to be. I believe in God but I don't go to church. I think that people should just be decent human beings. However, I do believe in prayer. And I believe in the saying "Let go and let God" because that's seemed to work for me so far. If I feel super overwhelmed I just closed my eyes, take a deep breath and whisper the serenity prayer. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference." That seems to help me. It just reminds me that if something is out of my control then there's nothing I can do about it. Which helps. The things I can control however are a little more tricky. Those things require strats. Take cleaning for example. I have been so goddamn depressed lately that I haven't touched my apartment in two weeks. Its a pit here. And I'm not afraid to tell you that. The only things I've done for the past two weeks are work and sleep and its nothing short of a miracle that I even made it to work. So my plan for today is simple. Take a deep breath. Drink my coffee and start with one area at a time. I've found that cleaning is almost therapeutic. There's nothing better (to me anyway) then a clean, good smelling home.

Speaking of good smells. I love love love aromatherapy. I personally diffuse a lot of lavender and lemon. Sometimes with dash of peppermint. It just makes me feel relaxed. I'm currently in the middle of cleaning (I stopped to check my email and ended up blogging) so I'm diffusing lavender and orange. It makes the place smell clean and the hint of lavender is very relaxing and calming. If you want to learn more about diffusing oils and how to get started and which oils do what I strongly recommend www.youngliving.com. They are a wealth of oil information.

With that I need to get back to my cleaning but I promise to update soon. Remember: deep breaths. Whatever you're going through you are not alone. And this too shall pass.